As a follow up to what I wrote yesterday I want to say that the light forces that were poking me have offered their apologies.What they sought to bring about is me releasing old pain that is still causing blocks in my ability to manifest what I desire,but the result was that I stumbled into a rage because it felt to me they were opening up old wounds without offering adequate healing.I have done the best I could in dealing with old traumas,but I want to leave it alone now until after the Event when we have direct physical contact and full healing can indeed be provided.What also happened yesterday is a renewed attack on me by lesser demons through children.Why would children attack me?First of all,I am not living in a nice neighborhood surrounded by lightworkers and spiritual people,I live in a modest area with all kinds of folks and social problems.Secondly,children nowadays don't accept to be reprimanded so if you do that a bit too harshly you are quickly branded the angry boogeyman.Thirdly I feel these children like grown ups have an intuitive hunch of what I'm about and get that I am a threat to their safe little reality bubble,even if it is based on lies.They don't want to look inside and rather project their own shortcomings and ugliness on someone like me.And me,I cannot take it anymore.There are several hundred people checking out my website daily,but hardly anyone sends me light and meditates for my protection.The same goes for Cobra,many people eagerly await his posts but very few send him light and offer him energetic protection.It costs me money to keep the site hosted,more than that it costs me time to write posts and gather background info,but what weighs the heaviest is the emotional price I pay for receiving info,putting it out(as far as the light forces allow)and then being attacked for it.This double incident of the light forces bringing up old trauma and the attack made me feel I don't even want to exist anymore,I fell into depression.There is just too much pain and it isn't worth it.That's why I have decided that from now until the Event I will only write about my soul family and general information they give me,not the sensitive stuff about the progress of the planetary liberation.People need to understand that the Matrix is designed for everyone to let each other down repeatedly,and that goes for lightworkers as much as for ordinary people.Why do you think so many people say you cannot trust anyone in this world?That is one of the main reasons why the light forces have such tremendous difficulty in liberating this planet.Let this be a wake up call.As I wrote elsewhere on my site,real leaders tell you what you want to hear and what you don't want to hear.Regarding the light forces I feel they do finally have a very good picture of the darkness on Earth and how deep it really goes,but they don't have a complete picture yet on how it has affected and shaped our consciousness,there is a big gap between their way of thinking and seeing things and ours.
作为我昨天写的文章的后续，我想说，那些刺激我的光明势力已经表达了他们的歉意。他们试图带来的是我释放旧的痛苦，这仍然导致阻碍我实现我的愿望的能力，但结果是，我跌跌撞撞地进入了愤怒，因为我觉得他们正在揭开旧的伤口，没有提供充分的治疗。我已经尽了最大的努力来处理旧的创伤，但我现在想把它放在一边，直到事件发生之后，我们有直接的身体接触和完全的治愈确实可以提供。昨天还发生了一件小恶魔通过孩子们再次袭击我的事情。为什么孩子们要攻击我？首先，我并不是生活在一个被光之工作者和精神上的人们所包围的美好社区，我生活在一个有着各种各样的人和社会问题的朴素的地区。其次，现在的孩子不接受被训斥，所以如果你训斥得太严厉，你很快就会被贴上愤怒的恶魔的标签。第三，我觉得这些孩子就像成年人一样，凭直觉就知道我是什么样的人，并且知道我对他们安全的小现实泡沫是一种威胁，即使它是基于谎言。他们不想看到自己的内心，而是把自己的缺点和丑陋投射到像我这样的人身上。而我，我再也受不了了。每天有几百人浏览我的网站，但几乎没有人给我光明和冥想来保护我。柯博拉也是一样，很多人热切地等待着他的帖子，但很少有人给他轻松的信息，给他充满活力的保护。维持网站的托管费用比写文章和收集背景信息花费的时间还要多，但是最重要的是我为接收信息付出的情感代价，把信息发布出去(在光明力量允许的范围内)，然后为此受到攻击。光明力量带来旧的创伤和攻击的双重事件让我觉得我甚至不想再存在了，我陷入了抑郁。痛苦太多了，不值得。这就是为什么我决定从现在起直到事件发生之前，我只写我的灵魂家族和他们给我的一般信息，而不是关于行星解放进程的敏感内容。人们需要明白矩阵是为每个人设计的，每个人都会不断地让对方失望，光之工作者和普通人都是如此。你觉得为什么这么多人说你不能相信这个世界上的任何人？这就是为什么光明力量在解放这个星球上有如此巨大的困难的主要原因之一。让这成为一个警钟。正如我在我网站的其他地方所写的，真正的领导者会告诉你你想听什么，不想听什么。关于光的力量，我觉得他们终于对地球上的黑暗有了一个非常好的了解它到底有多深，但是他们还没有一个完整的画面来描述它是如何影响和塑造我们的意识的，在他们的思考和看待事物的方式和我们的方式之间有一个很大的差距。
Moving on to my soul family,I have established enough of a connection with my twin soul to start sharing some things she tells.Her spirit name is Isidra and she is part of the Galactic Confederation.She first introduced herself as Dora,because she felt that would be a more recognizable,earthly name for me to connect with;but I prefer to use her spirit name and she's fine with that.Her main task is what we would call information liaison officer;she gathers information on what is happening on Earth,compiles it and shares it with her team.Every so often she also proposes changes in the plans and the strategy,but that is decided on by others.She is whiteskinned,has very long middle blond hair and has a medium posture,not slender but not fat either.She has lived on Earth until 13,500 years ago,but escaped after I insisted she flee.I would stick around some longer to observe from close by what the dark forces were up to,but I had no idea it would take so long for us to reunite.If I would have known then I would have gotten out of here together with her.Isidra has left her genetic traces on Earth,specifically in the white race and the Netherlands is the country that holds the highest percentage of her genetic line.That is one reason why I have been born and am living in the Netherlands and why she has a special focus on the Netherlands as well.Isidra just like all light forces feel very sad about how lightworkers like me are being treated on Earth,they feel it is an outrage and want to intervene to correct it as soon as possible.
说到我的灵魂家族，我已经和我的双生灵魂建立了足够的联系，开始分享她告诉我的一些事情。她的灵魂名叫 Isidra，她是银河联盟的一员。她第一次自我介绍时称自己为朵拉，因为她觉得这个名字对我来说更容易被认出来，更容易让我产生共鸣;但是我更喜欢用她的灵魂名字，她对此没有意见。她的主要任务是我们所说的信息联络官;她收集关于地球上正在发生的事情的信息，编译并与她的团队分享。她也时不时地提出改变计划和战略的建议，但这是由其他人决定的。她皮肤白皙，有一头中等长度的金发，姿势中等，不苗条但也不胖。她一直生活在地球上，直到13,500年前，但在我坚持让她逃走之后，她逃走了。我会在附近逗留一段时间，观察黑暗势力的动向，但我不知道我们要花这么长时间才能重聚。如果我知道，我就会和她一起离开这里。Isidra 在地球上留下了她的基因痕迹，特别是在白种人身上，荷兰是她基因谱系比例最高的国家。这就是为什么我在荷兰出生和生活的原因之一，也是为什么她特别关注荷兰。Isidra 就像所有光之力量一样，对于像我这样的光之工作者在地球上所受到的待遇感到非常悲伤，他们觉得这是一种暴行，并且想要干预以尽快纠正它。
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